When you notice the clock only has 24 hours!

So I’ve wanted to post something about what’s new and not about me right now…but unfortunately the clock only has 24 hours, and I still need do eat and sleep.

So let’s try to resume stuff…

  • I’ve left my job!

It was something necessary…i was going threw depression due to it and then a new opportunity arrive! Thank the lord!

  • I started a new work as a model scouter for a model agency!

So this part was fun! I will not mention the name of the agency for private reasons. So my job is to find new faces for the agency…trying to find the next big model in Portugal! It has been quite fun, from April till last week i have been around the country scouting possibly new models for the agency and also doing castings with my boss. Not so easy if I may say, because you may do like 8h per day and still didn’t manage to find the “ONE”. I will be doing this job till August and then we will see what journey will I take next.

  • I left some disciplines behind again…unfortunately i left the most important one that determines if I pass the year or not…

Next year I still be in the second year, but I need change in my life and I need to focus on me and my well being…so that’s the choice I made. I will finish my degree in due time…

I will try to post some works related to school maybe…this week…i can’t promise…

Hope you enjoyed today post…

You can transform nightmares into sweet dreams…

When the machines don’t want to work!

Is it me or this happens to everyone out there?

When you get the urge to do something and your sewing machine don’t fully cooperates…or maybe it was just me for not reading the manual how you suppose to do!!!!!

I have to machines from Singer, one for general work and one to cut and sew. The one I had a problem today was with the cut and sew…just because I hadn’t read the manual XD. For those who get this…the problems is always with the tension!

In the end I still manage to correct the problem and made cute handkerchiefs!

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Their size is 20×20 cm….and I love the patterns!

I made 24 of them…6 for each pattern. (everything done today…i catch a god wave today XD…wave of happy thoughts!)

Maybe I should start selling them…need to think about it.

Also I’ll use this post to show my working place…where all the nightmares happen!

Most of the time I use the sofa to gather ideas and draw…the havy part its in the working table.

Hope you enjoyed today post…

You can transform nightmares into sweet dreams…

So what happened so far…

Yup… my life became a complete chaos…

I’ve tried my best to keep my head up and end this second year of fashion studies while working 5 days per week, 5 hours per day…but the task proved to be more difficult than expected…

So…short story short… I flunk the school year…

It’s always funny looking behind… For so many times people had made me feel I wasn’t enough for any task I put my mind into…

At work…they think people who attend fashion studies are always attending parties, making some doodles and trying every excuse to not be at work…

At school…they think you are lazy because you are always late and using your work as an excuse for not having enough time to finish your tasks. They also think that one extra week is plenty of time to finish the task of two months work…

The time scheduled for my last semester was something like this…school started every day at 8 am til 12h30 pm, work started at 3 pm til 8 pm (except for two days that school ended at 3 pm and I had to stay at work til 9 pm).

Don’t forget that i still had to come home…make dinner…and oh yeah…make the school tasks…or at least trying to…and manage to relax my head from my work (at the time, and for two years, I worked at a complaint department but then they decided to change me to another department so right now I’m managing client invoice problems for an electricity company).

It was a lot of work, I felt a lot of pressure from both sides and flunk the school year…

Then time has passed and I had to start again from second year only doing the subjects I had left behind…once again shit happened…and all hell breaks loose…

When I restarted the second year I only had the drawing subject to do…but due to some issues that happened at my work I had a nervous breakdown and started to had a lot of panic attacks, felt really depressed and insecure…thinking I wasn’t enough…

I was on medical leave from 16th of September till today… Right now I’m feeling a lot better and asked my doctor to let me return to work…so then I’m returning to work on the start of February.

Also, the second semester will begin and I have 5 subjects to do…and I will try my best… So I will press ON!

Finally, holidays…or so I thought…

When I finally handed my last work of the semester and thought to myself:

“At last…a time of peace! Holidays are just in the corner… I will enjoy Christmas with my family and New Year’s Eve with my best friends! It will be awesome!!! Time to play games and chew bubble gum! XD”

Once again…who am I fooling???

Let’s recheck our real schedule…

So yeah…school holidays had started…but I still had to go and see an exhibition on a museum…made a written work about the art I saw and what had influenced me to make a new fashion collection…submitted to my teacher by email till 29 of December.

Then there is more two works!

One ScrapBook to the Project subject and had to make a Textile Print based on insects and all the description that may be need like: what type of fabric will be use, what type of method of printing, etc., for another subject…everything to be handed TODAY! (Jan 6)

(At the same time… I still had to work…my only day offs are on the weekends. And still I had to drove like 300 km to see my family and another 300 km to return home…yes I own a car…and yes… I was the one doing the driving…no rest for me)

Last night…was a hell of a night…my head hurt so bad… I didn’t know if I could make it or not…started to feel nauseated…once again I thought that I would pass out on the floor… I gave up at 2 am…my body can’t take it like before…and went to bed with my work unfinished…feeling defeated again…

I slept like 4 hours…then put myself together and finished the damn work!

I arrived at my College just in time to print my two works and handed them just in the last minute! SAFE!

Sometimes I feel to old for this shit! >_<

 

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Versão Portuguesa

 

Quando finalmente entreguei o meu último trabalho do semestre e pensei para mim mesma:

“Finalmente…um momento de paz! As festas estão mesmo ao virar da esquina…Vou apreciar o Natal com a família e o Ano Novo com os meus melhores amigos! Vai ser fantástico!!! Hora de jogar e mastigar pastilha elástica! XD”

Mais uma vez…quem estava eu a enganar???

Vamos rever o nosso verdadeiro calendário…

Sim yah…as férias da escola tinham começado…mas eu ainda tinha que ir ver uma exposição num museu…fazer um trabalho escrito sobre as obras que tinha visto e o que me poderia ter influênciado para fazer uma nova colecção de moda…enviar tudo por email para o professor até dia 29 de Dezembro.

Depois havia mais dois trabalhos!

Um ScrapBook para a cadeira de Projecto e tinha que fazer um padrão têxtil baseado em insectos e todas as suas discrições que podiam ser necessárias: que tipo de tecido seria usado, que tipo método de estapagem, etc., para outra cadeira…tudo para ser entregue HOJE! (Jan 6)

(Ao mesmo tempo…Ainda tinha que trabalhar…os meus únicos dias de descanço são aos fins de semana. E ainda tive que conduzir 300 km para ver a minha família e mais 300 km para voltar para casa…e sim eu tenho um carro…e sim…era eu que ia a conduzir…não há cá descanço para mim)

A noite passada…foi uma noite do inferno…a minha cabeça doía tanto…não sabia se ia ou não conseguir terminar…comecei a sentir-me enjoada…mais uma vez pensei que ia cair imóvel no chão…desisti às 2 da manhã…o meu corpo já não aguenta como antes…fui deitar-me com o trabalho por acabar…a sentir-me derrotada mais uma vez…

Dormi umas 4 horas…recompus-me e acabei o raio do trabalho!

Cheguei à minha Faculdade mesmo a tempo de fazer as impressões dos dois trabalhos e entreguei o trabalho mesmo no último minuto! SALVA!

As vezes sinto-me desmasiado velha para esta merda! >_<

Intro…

Because yesterday was my breaking point…I decided to create this fashion blog about real life nightmares around the life of a fashion student!

Sometimes I’m so tired that I need to see that I’m not the only one desperate to finish a work with the deadline to tomorrow! But when I quickly check the internet, the only stuff that I could find is nightmares related to how a type of garment looks bad in someone or someone making a statement that another someone had committed a fashion crime…whatever…real problems please?

So to explain why this blog…

I’m 28 years old, I’m a 2nd year fashion student and I work at the same time…that’s my real life problem…combining college with work and the fact that I already have a life and bills to pay. Don’t have children yet…if I had I don’t know how I would manage all, but I’m a proud mother of two cats!

Only started college last year because my first life choice was music, so I’m also a Sound Engineer and a Music Producer but I didn’t work in the industry…few opportunities here in Portugal and I could say that I was afraid of moving by myself to another country to try out…

Next I started to work and before I knew it I was letting my dreams sunk…

If weren’t my friends I probably wouldn’t be where I am now!

I invite you all to my nightmares…

Please enjoy!

 

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Versão Portuguesa

 

E porque ontem foi quando quebrei…decidi criar este blogue de moda sobre verdadeiros pesadelos de vida em torno de um estudante de moda!

Por vezes estou tão cansada que só preciso de ver que não sou a única desesperada por acabar um trabalho em que o dia de entrega é amanhã! Mas quando faço uma busca rápida na internet, a única coisa que consigo encontrar são pesadelos relacionados como uma peça de roupa fica mal em alguém ou alguém a declarar que outro alguém teria cometido um crime na moda…como queiram….problemas reais por favor?

Então para explicar o porquê deste blogue…

Tenho 28 anos, sou aluna no 2º ano de moda e trabalho ao mesmo tempo…esse é o meu problema da vida real…conciliar faculdade com trabalho e o facto de já ter uma “vida” e contas para pagar. Ainda não tenho filhos…e se os tivesse não sei como iria conseguir conciliar tudo, mas sou uma orgulhosa mãe de duas gatinhas!

Apenas comecei a faculdade no ano passado isto porque a minha primeira escolha de vida foi música, sou também Técnico de Áudio e Produtor Musical mas nunca trabalhei na industria…poucas oportunidades aqui em Portugal e posso também dizer que tive receio de me mudar sozinha para outro país para experimentar…

Depois comecei a trabalhar e quando me apercebi estava a deixar os meus sonhos afundar…

Se não fossem os meus amigos possivelmente não estaria onde estou hoje!

Convido-vos a todos para os meus pesadelos!

Divirtam-se!